Quarantined

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum wrt,

i've been feeling groggy these past few days. and today, i decided to quarantine myself; partly because it was too cold outside and if i tried going outdoors today, i might get worse and partly because i didn't want any of my groupmates to be sick as well (over these past few years, i've been well-known to be a source of  infection to them). and i spent the whole day inside of my room, not once heading out the doors. 

it wasn't really the best of days even though i got the chance to sleep in. well, for one i didn't get many things done; i only managed to get them done in the evening. and i guess i was really out of it - all the sneezing, coughing, blowing out my nose - it was all too tiring and agitating. sleep was the only way i knew to feel better.

and because of this really unproductive day i had, i was reminded by this hadeeth once by the Muhammad p.b.u.h., two ni'mat that we always take for granted; ample free time and health. 

when you feel healthy and energized, you feel like you can all the things in the world. even if you don't get to do all the things in the world, at least you get something done and feel good that you've accomplished something for the day. you can run, you can go through the cold, freezing winter from morning till evening and when you get home even if you feel tired, you know that you have done and accomplished something. go to class, attain some useful knowledge or maybe just to accompany your friend out in the cold. Health is something we always take for granted, until Allah decides to test us with it.

free time is always taken for granted as well. when you're too busy for exams, work and whatnot, you just wish you had more time for dakwah, more time to prepare for the next daurah or the next usrah. but when you get the time, you tend to use the time for other purposes with less priority.

i don't know, maybe it's just my own weakness of not being able to arrange my time effectively so i would be able to do everything and be better than what i am now. maybe it's my own weakness that's taking me back from becoming extraordinary.

Oh Allah.. please give me the strength and patience to better myself and do more for this ummah.